October 20-21, 2009- Death days. Life ruined with a single TELEPHONE CALL. :(

It's just so sad, and I wouldn't want to imagine my life without this sport. :(
OH NO! :(
I guess this is it. My mother finally told me, "WAG KA NA MAGTRAINING HA."
It crushed my heart like hell.
I wanted to scream, and cry my eyes out.
But even though a more dominating part of me wanted to do this, I couldn't. I CAN'T. :(
I was in front of my mother and it was early in the morning of Oct. 21, 2009.
It all happened yesterday.
FLASHBACK.<----
October 20, 2009.
WOOOH! It was raining real hard, and I was already thinking twice whether I was going to train or not.
Then our coach texted me, "Bihis na kayo, pababa na `ko.."
So I told my other team mates, to change their clothes for training.
It was FUN! xD
Even though we were not complete, it was still a fun day to train.
We had no court so we were forced to have our loading, conditioning and court exercises in the lobby.
We did a lot of running and stuff,so I was quite tired.
Then it hit me like a bullet.
It hit me the first time that day. ASTHMA SHIZZ. :| :|
It was light attack, so yeah. I just took deep breaths, and I was fine, ready to train again. :]
I had more fun with my partner when we were doing the sit-ups and push-ups thingy. :))
Then, when it was already time to pray. There it was again. 2nd time around!
I went to one corner while gasping for air, I was seeing all black.
So I fell. Zarah, [friend], went to me to catch me. So I fell unto her arms.
Then they all came rushing to me, asking, "WHAT HAPPENED!?" or, "ANNE! ARE YOU OKAY!?"
I was sitting down, trying to catch my breath.
They got one of those giant Goldilocks box that was left over from the cheerleader's party before our training. They used it as giant fans to give me air.
[ BTW, I am thanking those who fanned for me! ILY guys. ]
I couldn't feel my fingers, it was like they were ice frozen. I couldn't even bend them! :(
So they were massaging it, and I was still panting. I calmed down, for easy breathing.
My coach tried to talk to me, he told me a lot of things. He even told the team to pray for me right there, on their places, and immediately.
He also told me things like,
"Just pray inside."
"Think about God."
"Just relax, inhale and exhale."

He's a good coach, the best I ever had, so far.
He was worried sick.
And to the point that he was telling me something like, "Don't train anymore."
He didn't say those words, but I felt it. He wanted me to stop.
And that's when I started to cry.
You may think it's awkward or silly, BUT I'M SORRY. I LOVE VOLLEYBALL AND THE PEOPLE WHO SHARES THE SAME INTEREST WITH ME [TEAM MATES] TOO MUCH TO GIVE IT ALL UP NOW. I won't just quit that easily.
They WILL NEVER be able to convince me to stop playing the SPORT i love so much. It's no longer a past-time for me. It's already a PASSION.
I may be not that darn good, but I can try.
That's why quitting like that, isn't going to be the reason for me quitting the sport i love. it will never be easy.
I wanted to BEG my coach to PLEASE not to tell a soul, especially my parents.
but NO.

About 8:30 PM, the phone rang.
I was hoping it's Patricia, my bestfriend.
But NO. It was my COACH. Right then and there, I texted him and BEGGED him literally to PLEASE DON'T TELL.
I was too late. The phone was already given to my mom, and they talked. OH NO. :| :|
Their phone conversation lated for about 30 minutes.
As soon as the phone was down, my mom called my name. I went to the living room, and I knew we were to have a discussion.
I told them everything, ASSURING them that I don't need no EFFING check-up, and I was totally okay. I don't know if I had convinced them or not, I don't know!
I walked out and entered our room.
As soon as I lie down on the bed, tears just started to fall. :(
I don't ever want to give up playing anymore. it was too painful and hard for me to let go the only sport i love, despite not having that MUCH skills on it. :(
I cried and cried, `CAUSE I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO STOP PLAYING ANYMORE! :(
I was afraid that my mom would tell me, "ANAK TAMA NA.."
I cried myself to sleep.
And that's when IT happened.
When I woke up, first thing in the morning, my mom told me, "WAG KA NA MAGTRAINING HA.."
It crushed my heart LIKE HELL. I was afraid she'd say that, and now it felt like the end of the world for me.
I wanted to cry, but decided to reserve it for my bestfriend when I got to school.
That's why, first thing i did when i stepped on our school grounds, was to find my shoulder to cry on, my bestfriend. :(
As soon as I saw her, I just threw my bags on the floor, ran to her, hugged her, and let it all out. I cried on her shoulder, I can feel the tears on her polo. It was wet, like she had been wet by water.
She was trying to calm me down, but I couldn't at that time. I was asking questions like, "Pat bakit ganun? Kung gusto naman sakin' ni coach, hindi niya sasabihin right? Ayaw na ba ni coach na magtraining ako? Bakit ganun, Pat? I don't understand. :(("
She tried to explain, and I still couldn't understand why.
Then, my coach passed by, and asked me, "Now do you understand, Anne, why i needed to tell you parents?"
I just shook my head, and started to cry al over again.
Thanks to my first subject teacher, too. She comforted me before she started class. She asked me to stay outside, and just come in when I was ready. So THANK YOU!

So, I want to thank my TEAM MATES, who helped me;
Patricia [ILY!], Zarah, Ate Jamee, Kuya Kevin, Kuya Ian, Ate Kayla, Ate Claren, AND COACH.
Even though up to now, I still don't understand why. :(

I AM PLAYING VOLLEYBALL FOR TOO LONG AND LOVE IT TOO MUCH TO GIVE UP NOW. I CAN'T JUST QUIT.

It`s a NEW addiction! >:)

LIKE WHOA! I`ve got an addiction like hell. Not only is they`re VOCALIST hot like YEAH, they`ve got music that speaks to the whole `effin' world! \m/

EVANESCENCE.

AND THEIR AWESUMM MUSIC:
Evanescence - 01 Sweet Sacrifice Mp3
Oh yeah, I also made a quote today. Dunno how, just popped out. B-)

"HIM"
Baby what`s me without you, THAT, I can`t imagine.
Since you came into my life, you gave me happiness, LOVED, is what I`ve always been.
The way you talk, way you walk, the way you make me smile,
It makes my life real worthwhile.
A bit of your touch, don`t even get me started when you speak,
Honey you knock me off my damn feet.
I gave and entrusted you my fragile heart,
It proved that in my life you are doing your part.
To keep me safe, to make me happy when I`m blue,
Baby you showed me how to love, and this I know is definite, you`re love is TRUE. :))

--BOW. :P

09//23//09. Reunion like YEAH!

It was morning and I was almost LATE! o.o
We had to switch school services because the one we are using was busted. So we had to wait for the other service to come so we can go to school. When we got there, the students were already lined up, ready to go up the stairs. I even saw one of my team mates who just got out of his car.
When I went to my section`s lining place, THEY WERE NOT THERE ANYMORE! :o
I quickly ran up the stairs to our classroom. =)) Good thing, I was able to catch up, there was no teacher yet.
Next exciting thing that happened, was our TLE class! :)
We were having fun looking at our own blogs and even had fun during and after our quiz! We were so amazed by the "wonders" that the MS excel can do. ELIPSE. :))
What really surprised me was when I looked out the door, I saw one of our team mates looking inside! Since he was a Senior, today they were to go to the San Juan Gym since it was their turn to watch our RedCubs play basketball. Since I saw them, I assumed that the game was already done, and wished that our RedCubs won. \m/
After our Computer class, my team mates were there, standing. =)) Mga nakatambay. :))

After our Computer class, we went back to our classroom to have the orientation for our retreat. We were told our Do's and Don'ts, what to bring, etc.

Skipping that part, it was the most exciting part of the day! TRAINING TIME! :D
But this was not just and ordinary training say, today, we were going to fight with the graduated, or ex-volleyball players. B-)
DEHADONG DEHADO. That`s what we thought. But then again, some sets were won by the college players, and most sets, were won by us! >:) WE ROCK! :)
But the important thing is, even though people have already graduated, they always remember the people who are still a part of they`re life. And, WE ENJOYED IT SO MUCH! :D

So much for this day, BUKAS NAMAN! >:)

09//21//09. No classes. i realized, i love my team.

It`s the end of Rammadan. No classes, *sigh*. In the morning, I was woken up, again, by the message alert of my phone. Today, I had 34 messages. It was already 10 AM, it was real late. I squinted my eyes, I didn`t want to stand up yet, I was still tired. My head hurts like hell! It hurts so much well, because I slept real late. I think it was around 2 AM, then I woke up again 4 AM. Well, I slept that late because i kept on sneezing because of my cold. So i just decided to talk to my friends who were still up through text messaging. i ended up the first one to fall asleep since I have colds.

So I finally stood up and all people in te house were awake and doing their own businesses. My mom, older and younger sister were in front of the computer and my dad was inside the other room, watching TV. I sat down the couch and looked at my phone. "10:14 AM", the lime-colored font said. I looked at the table to see what`s for breakfast. There, I saw bread. I was hungry, so I grabbed a piece, and sat down again. it was a sad and boring day. It was raining hard, still it was hot.
My sister wanted me to go with her to Sta. Lu to watch some movie, but I refused. I`ve got a lot of homeworks to be done, and there was practically no time for going out.

Then I remembered last night, my mom talked to me about my Volleyball training in our school. She told me that she would stop me from going to training if my grades are too low, or if I come home late. AGAIN. It was heartbreaking. I started to train, i wanted to END the training, too. I`ve become so attached not only to the sport, but with the people I play the sports with, and has made my highschool life real worthwhile.




I never wanted to stop. It was so depressing `cause I didn`t want to stop anymore, `cause my parents are already having second thoughts whether I`m going to continue my training or not. I didn`t want to leave anymore, I wanted to train hard to become real good, and I didn`t want to leave my team mates who`s always been so good to me, and treated me like their family. :D

09//20//09. I love NIKEs! <3

I was woken up by the message alert of my phone. I checked on it, "74 messages received". I though, "Wow. A LOT.." I rested and lazily rolled around the bed for a few minutes because I was still too lazy to stand up.

After a few minutes, I finally stood up from the bed. I walked out the door and my mom was there, watching TV. My mom asked me if I wanted to make "GALA" today. Of course, I said YES! :D

My mom asked me again, where I wanted to go, and I said anywhere. So it was decided. We were going out today! :) My mom told me to wake up my other two sisters if we were going out `cause it was already late. So I tried waking them up, but neither of them stood up. :| But after a few minutes of continuously poking

them, they squinted their eyes and woke up. We all took a bath and called for a taxi to Glorietta. It was a pretty long ca ride, but it was all worth it. :P

`Cause when we got there, my mom bought something re

al expensive! 2 bottles of 200mL perfumes for 6k! We were all laughing because she spent real hard on just a bottle of perfume. :))

After "wastefully" spending a lot of money, we went to Shakey`s to eat lunch. My older sister craved for Mojos for the last 2 weeks, and finally, she can have one today! :)

After eating, we went to a lot of Sports shops to find a pair of knee pads for me. We searched and searched but we couldn`t find any. Whil

e we were walking, I kept on shouting, "Nike shoes! Nike Shoes!"

Until one stop, we went to Nike in Greenbelt. And there, I saw these:

My sister whispered to me, "Ask mom to buy it for you training shoes!" So I did. My mom need not to be asked twice, she said YES! I partied inside the Nike Store. WHOOOO! <:-P

Of course, `di magpapahuli si ate! She looked for a a bag, `cause she wanted a Nike bag badly, too. After searching, and finally picking a bag, she bought a black Nike bag.

We not only bought Nike stuffs, we also bought a hat, a pair of large orange shades, and some headbands.

The only thing wrong about this day was when we were abut to go home.

We took a cab home, ofcourse. But the problem is, the cab had it`s air-conditioning BUSTED! :|

It was so hot inside, it was like we were inside an oven. :| Adding to that, he asked for a 30 pesos tip because he said that our destination was too far away! Mom was kinda pissed. Kasi naman dba? Sira na nga aircon mo, manghihingi ka pa ng extra 30! >.<>

09//18//09, Happy Birthday, dear Adviser!

It was already morning. I woke up to the poking of my housemaid who told me that it was time to wake up! I sleepily went to the bathroom and took a bath. And then I realized, it was the day that me and my class are supposed to have a party for our adviser! In the morning, we were at our school lobby and I was waiting for my bestfriend to arrive.

And when she arrived, she was already carrying a big cake box with the label "Goldilocks". We decided to have the party on our Math subject, which was with our adviser, and also our Math teacher.

For the fear of the cake melting, we asked the people in the canteen to store the cake until we come down and get it.

Since our Math subject was also our very last period. We had balloons, another cake, now with the label "Red Ribbon" and some cake rolls that our homeroom officers donated for the party. We waited until our last subject.

The subject before Math, our English teacher was kind enough to give us time to prepare for the party.

We blew all the balloons and hid it. And by the end of out English period, we came up with a plan. :)

The plan was, we were going to upset our Adviser by telling him that we have a case with the school. The case was, that one of our classmates threw a chair at out other classmate because of his anger.

Our plan worked, but not perfectly. As our adviser opened the door, we yelled at the top of our voices, "SURPRISE!" And it was followed by the singing of "Happy Birthday". There were a lot of noise, and the boys in our class started to pop the balloons as if they were party poppers. We opened the cakes. The Goldilocks was flavored chocolate and the Red Ribbon was Chocolate Mousse. Without any plates, we just scooped the cake with only our plastic forks! Picture phones flashed, and a lot of phones recorded the event. When it was almost the end of the period, our adviser gave out a speech, to thank us for the party and everything.

It was truly a day to remember not only for our adviser, but also for us, his "second-family.." :)